If you saw a life size concrete blue whale being driven down a local street what would the expression on your face look like? I love photojournalism. If it weren't assigned to shoot this for my internship I'd probably live my whole life without seeing a blue whale with a wide load sign on it ass.

The fog floating through my heavy head
Is an olive haze overcome by your sillouhette
You are shadows, a presence undefined
Always there, never focused in my mind.

Couldn't I please just have me?
Without your great green memory.

John Mayer is not just talented he's hot.

I watched this show tonight about this woman who reinvented hereself about 5 times and each time as a teenager in a different city with a different name. So here she was 30 years old going to highschool living with foster parents. Her poor boyfriend was making out with someone twice his age. I'm so glad now that I made the decision to move on with my life and embrace being grown up. Looking at that woman's life just reconfirms how absurd it is to wish you could stay young forever.

Jessica Simpson makes me feel smart. She was offered buffolo wings and said no thanks I don't eat buffolo. People laughed and then realized she was serious. So then someone told her its chicken you idiot to which she replied really? Another intelligent person said yes they call them buffolo wings because the sauce on them origanated in Buffolo. Jessica stares blankly until somone comments didn't you ever think about the fact that buffolo don't have wings? Jessica says oh yeah I guess I never thought about that.

This is the third and final time I'm writing this. If blogger screws up again the world will never know my joy. Here is the condensed version.......

Yesterday I met a man who fulfills every qualification I've ever looked for in a guy. It's not worth mentioning his name, or what my qualifications are because its not like I think he's the one for me, or even that I want to date him. But bless his heart he has restored my faith in men. It's so freeing to know that I haven't been searching for something that doesn't exist.
Knowing that perfect men exist got me thinking what other things did I previously believe were unobtainable. Have I just been sitting on my ass letting the best things in life pass me by because I thought they were just illusions. I feel like every other successful person in the world must feel. I feel like I can do anything I want to. So I'm dropping the wieght. I'm getting a real job. I'm going to take the photojournalism world by storm. I'm going to work hard at becoming a better actress. Most of all I'm going to love God and life with passion.
Ahhhhh....... exhale.
Thank you my friend, though I know you won't read this, for being you and giving me the spark I needed to remember what it feels like to believe in myself.
I'm such a soap opera.

I'm utterly depressed that I'm going to be 22 next month. I feel the onset of mid life crisis and I've only lived a quarter of my life. Seems to me that its all down hill from here. I wonder how I'll ever live a fulfilling life with this attitude. In fact I know I won'tlive a fulfilling life with this attitude. So its time for things to change. #70 on my list of things to do before I die is going to be to celebrate my getting older. I've decided on my birthdays from now on instead of being depressed I'm going to party like no other day of the year. Starting next month with my 22nd. Any ideas people? Hmmmm anyone wanna go to Vegas???? yeah Vegas!