This is the third and final time I'm writing this. If blogger screws up again the world will never know my joy. Here is the condensed version.......

Yesterday I met a man who fulfills every qualification I've ever looked for in a guy. It's not worth mentioning his name, or what my qualifications are because its not like I think he's the one for me, or even that I want to date him. But bless his heart he has restored my faith in men. It's so freeing to know that I haven't been searching for something that doesn't exist.
Knowing that perfect men exist got me thinking what other things did I previously believe were unobtainable. Have I just been sitting on my ass letting the best things in life pass me by because I thought they were just illusions. I feel like every other successful person in the world must feel. I feel like I can do anything I want to. So I'm dropping the wieght. I'm getting a real job. I'm going to take the photojournalism world by storm. I'm going to work hard at becoming a better actress. Most of all I'm going to love God and life with passion.
Ahhhhh....... exhale.
Thank you my friend, though I know you won't read this, for being you and giving me the spark I needed to remember what it feels like to believe in myself.
I'm such a soap opera.